We made it

We really didn't have great hope for Christmas this year. We thought we'd make the gesture though, and we shopped and cleaned and baked and wrapped and decorated and cooked...and we made it though. Not without some tears and some weirdness, but it wasn't a bad Christmas, just lonely and a little sad. My tactic this year was to buy the kids something really outrageously good so at least their joy could be real and they'd remember this Christmas as a good one. Jilly got a laptop and Sher and Grey got smart phones and Cassie got a wacom tablet. I got Alan an official WoW shirt (Garrosh Wants You!) and Mom an angel (I always buy mom an angel for Christmas because she collects them. This year's was from an artist in Israel who makes felted dolls). And I waited for Santa to come. I can pick out any number of moments that would qualify as my Christmas moment this year, but I can't find that one special moment that usually hits me every year, my Christmas Spirit visit that remains in my memory for years to come. Maybe I'm still waiting, or maybe it's not going to happen?